So, I have a whole lot of catching up to do. Officially pregnant neighbor due a month after I should have been; another child-free, child-obsessed holiday in the books; a weekend with the in-laws spent discussing baby names and pregnant (teenage) relatives; and, perhaps the most fun (?!?) of all? Apparently I have a new Gonal-F/Lupron side effect. Holy panic attacks, Batman! Totally terrifying, btw. But, I’ll save all that for the post in which I recount my steady march toward hormone-induced insanity. Something to look forward to, eh?
Today’s post serves a much more exciting purpose. Today, I finally get to tell you my wee bit of news that I’ve been dangling out there for, oh, more than two weeks! And, here it is in graphical form:
That’s right! I’ve been nominated for RESOLVE‘s Hope Award for Best Blog for the post I wrote back in April to commemorate National Infertility Awareness Week. My Join the Movement post joins four others (Almost a Father, Fertile Healing, Inconceivable!, and Just Stop Trying and It Will Happen — go, read them, now!) in the running for the Best Blog title. The winner will be selected via an open online vote occurring from now until the end of July. (So, yea, after you’re done reading, go, vote, now!) Then, come early November, one lucky lady or gent gets to get all dolled up and attend RESOLVE’s swanky Night of Hope gala in Manhattan to accept the Award. And, who says infertility removes the glamour from your life?
On a more personal note, I remember voting for this award in past years and thinking, “Wow, how amazing is it that these brave women have opened up and laid it all out on the line (online) for those of us grasping for some sense of normalcy and belonging?” Can I just say how incredibly surreal it is that I now find myself among that number? Seriously, just pinch me already!
And, the timing of this announcement couldn’t really have come at a better time for me. I first was notified of my selection via email during another endless Friday afternoon work meeting. A work meeting, I should add, during which I was mentally running through my checklist of things to pack for our whirlwind trip down to the Walk of Hope just a few short hours later. Talk about reinforcing to me the accuracy of what I wrote several months ago. Speaking of the many new endeavors and distractions I took on in the months following the termination of my ectopic pregnancy, I wrote:
All these avoidant behaviors, these selfish distractions, they did a lot more than help me pass the time. They did something that no amount of openness with fertile friends and family members could have ever done. These activities normalized my experience, they let me know I was most certainly not alone in my feelings of pain and powerlessness.
As I sit here, newly returned from my second Walk of Hope, looking forward to tomorrow’s peer-led support group meeting, and still feeling the deep sting of our latest failed cycle, receiving this nomination reminded me yet again that infertility does not need to be a solitary battle. It’s sure as hell a whole lot easier when it isn’t!
So, congrats to my fellow nominees and to the many, many others who contributed posts to this year’s Bloggers Unite Challenge. You may not always feel like (I know I often don’t), but your words matter more than you can ever know. From a former anonymous reader, thank you from the bottom of my heart for helping me find my own voice and put it to good use.